To whomever he chooses,
I am writing this on Valentines Day 2014. Right now, my three year old boy is in the other room watching Oscar's Oasis, or "The Lizard Show" as he calls it. It's his favorite right now. Today, especially today, I've been thinking a lot about love and what it means and what it means to Rocky. It made me think of you. I think about you a lot, even though I don't know you and I have no idea what you will really be like. I think a lot about what I want you to be like, and I'm confident that you are everything I've dreamt of for him and more.
For the past three years and nine months of our Rocky's life, I have been his advocate. I've been there for him when he's not being nice or someone isn't being nice to him. I have and I always will be on his side. I will always fight for him, I will fight for him when he doesn't even want me to. But I won't always be there. One day, hopefully a loooong loooong time from now, after you guys have had children and maybe even some grandchildren, I will pass on. He won't have me there for him in the same way he always had. As I'm sure you can imagine, this is scary for me to think about. I don't ever want to leave him. I do have some comfort though, because he won't be alone, he will have you. He will have you to tell him he's being silly, or mean, or that he's right. Just like you will have been doing for a long time before I'm gone (hopefully, assuming I get to live as long as I want to). People often joke about how scary and hard it is for a father to pass the reigns onto their son in law after a daughter is married. I don't have a daughter (yet, hopefully one day). But the idea of passing on the reigns to you is scary too. Rocky is my everything, he is my heart.
I want you to know that I have done the best I could with him. I know he's not perfect and I'm sure there will be times in your life together that you are cursing me, wishing I'd taught him better, wishing I'd done things differently. It's difficult to raise a child, knowing you're doing things wrong, knowing that you're going to wish you'd chose different things for him. All that I can promise you, is that for as long as he was mine before he gets to be yours, I did my best. Everything I chose for him, I chose because I thought it'd be the best thing for him. Please be patient with him, he's a good guy. He won't always choose things I would want him to, but that's part of life. I'm sure that if you have chosen to marry him, you know that he is worth some fight. That there will be ups and downs, but that he is a good man. I promise to you to try my best to raise him to honor women, to love hard work, to have a sense of humor. I have so many hopes and dreams for him and therefore for you.
I also want you to know that this letter is only meant for you. I hope I don't ever have to give this to anyone else. I hope you guys have the most happy blissful, perfect life together. I love you already, because he loves you. He chose you, that means you have to be pretty amazing. <3
Please love him,
Your future Mother-in-law
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